~ My Choosing

Surely as the fireflies dance amongst moonbeams
on a sultry summer evening, I am captured in your
emerald eyes. Paradox windows beckon me, as
your pain hints and sparkles. Your voice...
a swords' edge, so sharp. You test me with riddles
and innuendo, cutting me in discipline...

I tip-toe in sweet nothing's verses, shallow...
so meaningless, and you smile. I dare not jinx
this moment by speaking my love. My heart
inside out I as ache to admit my truth to you,
offer you the infinity within. Our dance, your
verbal leprosy. I give you what you demand,
I break. You toy at my heart, discounting
it's worth. You play the chords. My soul
strings vibrating in twisted, agonizing melodies
until snapped. Curly debris, qualifies as
a tangled lesson...

Surely as the sparrows sing amongst the morning
rays of the sun at dawn, I choose...
walking away from you.

© Bobbie Sandlin

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Inspired by 3WW: Capture, Jinx, Qualify

~ Inner Child ~

I think I know you
Complexities abound
Riddles and magic
An enigma, throughout

The world hated you
Belittled your spirit
Yet you stood back up
So bold, and so fearless

I feel all your trauma
You've endured much strife
I gave you much comfort
In the darkest of nights

In patience, I waited
When you closed the door
To pains of the past
That which hurt to the core

And now here we dance
You're wild and you dream
In ideas and in joy
Free thought, creatively

In mirrors you twinkle
My youth in aged eyes
Inner Child, How are you?
Only Love, no divides

© Bobbie Sandlin

For Carry on Tuesday 13.
For whatever reason, this just flowed when I looked at this weeks prompt. It applies, and it fits me, but it's just weird what inspired it lol. It was a very quick write..less than five minutes.

~ Red Dress ~

The darkness pierced
by refrigerator light
In my kitchen I stood there
as it blissfully beckoned
'Come on! Just one bite!'
The sweet piece of cheesecake
Taunting me

I resist, and slam the door
Make my way to
my closet of if only's
Cussing as I stubbed my toe
Acting the fool on one foot
in nighttime and blue language
with a hole in my underwear

In my pain 'Just one slice'
My inner voice weakens my resolve
"No!" I yell through clinched teeth
I have to lose this weight
The closet door squeaks, sliding open
My failures hang lifeless in front of me
I pick my favorite red dress

Three sizes too small
Holding its waist up to mine
The satiny fabric, patronizes me
The cheesecake flashes in my mind
There on the wall, that picture
Me in that red dress...
No double chins..hot as hell
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© Bobbie Sandlin
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Writing Exercise: 3 Word Wednesday: Darkness, Patronize, Weaken
Not really all that flowy, but I had fun with this.

Picture: 226/365 days: All the ruby red dresses... DaizyB

~ I'm Just Fine ~

My body isn't much

There's a lot, but it's not much to look at
I got some issues
So get your tissues
This takes time

My Brother would be squished
Carrying me
I'm horribly self conscious about
my two front teeth
35's apparently a new puberty
My face is...interesting

Made all my lists
Of what I have to do
Resolutions, revolutions
I'm dizzy and screwed
But the plus side, I'm free

My body's breaking down
My spirit's at a new dawn
My back creaks loud
But my mind thinks long
Need some good maintenance and a new chasse
But my Spirit, hums and sings

Bad habits got me
I'm stubborn and know better
Got a lot to change
But I busted my "go getter"
Not to mention what's all deflated on me
It's interesting

Yet the sun shines on me
The stars are aligned
My soul vibrates, and this Time is Divine
The silver lining here, to this long ass whine
I'm just fine
~
© Bobbie Sandlin
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I think this one is pretty self explanatory lol. Not all all flowy, just goofy thoughts.

~ Journey of Being ~

Blinded

Constant fumbling
In vain, I grasped at Light
Bondage
Inner ball and chains
Against, I fought with might

Tempted
Abuse my Temple
My body which cradles Soul
Triumph
Challenge my faith and will
Shed darkness, pain and cold

Wisdom
Truth maturely learned
A quickening in my Spirit
Forgiven
Cleansed, my cares no more
My soul grows bold and fearless

Love
Heart open, embracing all
I'm connected with humanity
Peace
I nurture, my loving home
I'm being what I wish to see
~
© Bobbie Sandlin
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This is one of those...it's out there lol. I was reading something online and it inspired me a bit for some word play, and while I'm not totally satisfied, I'm sticking it out here before I delete the document and think "Ick..Do over." I like how it started, and was happy with how it turned out. It's basically reflecting both past and current struggle, as well as current reality and growth. I'm just not that satisfied with the words, but it might be one of those that grows on me lol.

~ Lost and Found ~

Lost my spirit

Lost my mind
In violent fury
It made me blind

Blind to change
Blind to will
For lack of doing
Has made me ill

Ill in body
Ill in soul
The journey before me
My only hope

Hope for sanity
Hope in all
To never die
To never fall

Fall from grace
Fall in spite
Of all around me
Of all this Light

Light that is
Light is life
In all the fury
I fight the night

Night solitaire
Night so dark
My spirit it fights
Awaits the dawn

Dawn and all beauty
Dawn finally here
Cast away any doubt
Be happy right here

Here is my spirit
Here is my mind
In glorious fury
I'm finally found

Found and anew
Found and now whole
To love and be loved
I finally found home
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~© Bobbie Sandlin~
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My first poem that began this all lol. The first stanza rattled around in my brain till I could'nt take it and had to write it down...the rest "flowed" from there. It took maybe five minutes to write. I hope you enjoy.

~ Light Within ~

Shimmering stars in the sky

Breathlessly I gaze
Twirling brightly, sparkling
I'm lost in my amaze

I reach but cannot touch
Miles so afar
Brilliant and so vibrant
I wish upon my star

I wish for my innocence
I want my younger years
For sharp, cunning swiftness
A feeling I hold dear

My life all a tumble
My heart such a wreck
I wish for my sanity
My mind safely kept

My star grows brighter
Grows wondrous with light
Sweeps down all around me
Banishes my fright

My mind all ablaze
With knowledge and love
My experience has meaning
A gift from up above

I now have the courage
It's heaven acquired
Renewed faith and love
I've so deeply desired

My star in the sky
It twinkles and winks
When I sink into sorrow
I'll remember to think

To experience the joy
The wonders I have
To live in the moment
Let go of the past

Calm and peace within me
Here I go again
I step once more onto the path
To share the light within
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~© Bobbie Sandlin~

This was written during a time I was sure I was losing my mind. Change does that to you lol. I was searching and defining my faith, coming to grips with my mortality. I hope the message speaks to you.

~ Sacred Trek ~

Climbing up this mountain

Never thinking it’s in vain
Sometimes rocks would tumble down
And they’d get in my way

Piece by piece and faithfully
I’d cast them all aside
Sometimes optimistically
Other times I cried

Thorns and barbs would stab my feet
Upon my sacred path
I stop and rest and fix my feet
My lessons come to pass

With growing inner knowledge
I climb the mountainside
Windy days and pouring rain
My eager soul would thrive

Finally my final step
I’ve made it through my journey
The beauty takes my breath away
I raise my arms, so weary

Stinging eyes, filled with tears
Ablaze, look to above
Twirl, dazzle, spinning bright
The light fills me with love

Angels stand before me
Loved ones from my past
Angels ageless, beautiful
Speak life of ever last

God so breathes, eternal breeze
Inhaled from earthly bounds
I spread my wings, so tranquilly
In heaven I’ll be found

©Bobbie Sandlin



This one is my favorite. The first stanza was rattling in my brain, driving my crazy. This one was so easy to write. I sat down and just let it flow. I hope you enjoy it.